Every single day, the reverberations of my phone would throw me off. No news about the things I’m genuinely interested in. It’s just you. And you again. And you all over again. You’re taking centre stage. We are only halfway through 2020 and I can foresee the future remembering 2020 as your year.
Because of you, the last stretch of my A-Level journey became even more stressful. Many people know me for taking the unconventional long route of spending 5 years in Millennia Institute instead of the normal 3 years. At the final lap you then decide to appear as a boulder rolling towards me, leaving no room for me to hide and escape.
When PM Lee announced circuit breaker and the full commencement of HBL, my phone went buzzing with messages from friends and teachers. To wake up early and take the jam-packed train and buses to school, I no longer needed. However, the first few days of HBL were tough. Self-learning at home was a challenge. My allocated school hour as per school timetable dragged through the day. Writing one history essay took me half a day, instead of 50 mins. Homework began to pile up. I was unable to even do my own revision. The 4 walls surrounding me increased in its length. I knew I was sinking; I was lost. My anxiety and stress levels rose high. A-Levels is 7 months away. You took my precious time studying in school, having consultations and the ability to meet up with friends. How dare you?
The support and care from school and friends were tremendously helpful. I was never alone. The reassurance from teachers and friends gave me the strength to climb out of the hole. The removal of the common last topic eased things up a little. Your blessing to the world at least gave me some benefits. Being able to get back to school every day suddenly became a luxury. As I write this letter in my homeroom class, I can see my friends chatting happily with one another while maintaining social distance, some studying or sleeping on their desks. The familiar faces are no longer familiar with the donning of the irritating masks but if that is what it takes to see my friends, I’d take it.
Thanks to you, I was exposed to the true personality and behaviour of the occupants of this globe. Foolishness, kindness, insensitivity, generosity, etc. With more people being cognizant of the problem that you bestowed us with, there are still a number of people who remain self-centred.
As much as I would like to say thank you for giving me these valuable experiences and exposures, you’re still a huge boulder rolling around aimlessly. While people are still searching for ways to eradicate you, embracing the new normal would be the way of life for us. You may be a hindrance, but you’re just another hurdle for me to jump over. I am getting my desired grades and 2020 will be remembered as my year, not yours.