You came almost like a thief in the night.
There was an initial sense of loss when everything happened. Not only have you taken my job, but also the daily joy of working with my colleagues, some of whom have become close friends.
Nevertheless, I am thankful for an amazing support group to think and talk through the experience. For me, the most obvious question was whether I would be able to find a job in the current economic state and how long I could stay jobless for. Even my plants proved to be a form of support, as they continued to grow and bloom in the middle of a public health and economic crisis. They remind me that there’s a season for everything. And with every new leaf, I’m reminded that maybe this is a season for new beginnings.
With the retrenchment coinciding with circuit breaker measures, it felt like my life had been put on a very long pause. I am trying to make every day count as much as I can, instead of living out this time as a loooong transitional period. I count every small win, even on days I feel uninspired and unmotivated. Though all in all, I’m thankful for the opportunity to try out things I previously didn’t have time or energy for.
I look forward to going out without a mask and to meet people again when all this ends. I don’t really have any expectations for the new normal and I doubt it will be what we were accustomed to. It may even be uncomfortable, but it probably beats the feeling of being in a time warp.
As I adjust to this new phase in life, it can be difficult, but I try to look to future positive possibilities. I think back to the last “new beginning” I’ve had, on my first work trip. I had a cup of tea and the teabag tab came with a quote: Never let your memories be greater than your dreams. I have kept it since, and it is again a timely reminder for the second time now.
Dear COVID-19, it truly is a weird time in life and I’m still trying to make sense of it sometimes. You have taken away many things, but you have also given me the courage to dream a little bigger, and for that, I’m pretty thankful.